Monday 12 May 2008

Bl**dy furious


Having been notified that one of the two medical reports have been recieved by occ health, i again decided to chase up for the outstanding report from my pain clinic consultant.

I was horrified to be told by the consultant secretary that my employers had contacted them to say that they didnt need it after all.

How can that be?

The reason i have been unable to work is due to a combination of MS and my lower back condition.

I was/am really quite angry about this, ok i am bl**dy furious ..as I want ALL my medical history, conditions to be taken into consideration.And feel that the the whole picture is vital to understand the difficulties i experience and how they affect my ability to work and live.

The angry part of me is yelling

" hey , i cant just ignore one of my conditions i have to deal with this on a day to day basis ... i cant just ignore one of my condition that is why i am having to give up work... so you shouldnt ignore one either!"

It was my difficulties with my back condition as a result of an injury at work , i may add- that the company have never taken any responibility for.
That prevented me from working full time and neccessitated a reduction to 3 days a week, and the subsequent inability to maintain 3-4 hrs , a days a week is due to a combination of both Ms and back associated disability.

It turns out that the pain clinic specialist is notoriously slow at providing reports and after waiting eight weeks and despite my chasing it has not come through. And occ health dont want to wait for it.
I am reading into this that the neurologist report must be enough on its own for occ health to make a recommendation? But will have to wait and see what they have to say tomorrow.
However , would really like the other med report from the pain clinic specialist. I dont want the pension trust to have any reason to throw it out and want it all to be taken into consideration.

Just imagine how i would feel if it was to been rejected and i knew that all the medical information hadnt been taken into consideration! This decision impacts on the rest of my life , as do BOTH my conditions.

As i have been under the pain clinic for 12 years or so for my spinal injury, occ health is aware of a lot of the limitations is poses on me . so maybe they feel they have all the information they need regarding my back condition?

But even so , its a major step for me , giving up work and i think i need that report as a part of "my process", even if occ health dont think they need it.

I need to feel that my employer who i have struggled into work for 15yrs truely understands just what i have been dealing with.
I guess i could still insist on having that report written and pay £200 myself for it.

Thing is i havent got that kind of cash and i think that the multinational company i work for could at least honour their request for the two medical reports.. £200 a drop in the ocean for them!
I so angry, not an emotion i do very often.

So whats next,? I have an appointment to see the occ health Doctor tomorrow at 11.30 am.
I will be raising my concerns about noth medical reports not being taken into consideration.
I have my notes and hopefully my partner can come in with me as im so exhausted and full of emotion right now , im worried about not communicating everything , let alone take in what they say to me.

positive vibes please.

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